“I’ve got two kids and I go to the park and I can’t, I can’t breathe, I can’t run after them or I’m that mum at the park having a smoke and like, trying to hide and I’d rather spend the money on the kids than spend the money on smokes…

My oldest daughter, so, she made a video the last time I stopped, just before I stopped and it says ‘Mummy please don’t smoke or you’ll die.’ So I used to watch that every time I had cravings.”

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I’ve got two kids and I go to the park and I can’t, I can’t breathe, I can’t run after them. Or I’m that mum at the park having a smoke and like, trying to hide. And I’d rather spend the money on the kids than spend the money on smokes.

When I was pregnant I didn’t smoke, then as soon as I had both the kids I ended up right back on it. I work 60 hours a week so I’m at work constantly, and they all smoke. I did stop for about 4 months, just at the start of the year and then something happened at work and one of my colleagues said ‘oh do you want a smoke?’ and I said ‘Okay.’

That was it. Straight back on again. So disappointed.

My oldest daughter, so, she made a video the last time I stopped, just before I stopped, and it says ‘Mummy please don’t smoke or you’ll die.’

So I used to watch that every time I had cravings and it killed me. And that’s what made me stop and I was over the cravings and it was fine…and then I went back.

I just have to be strong, I have to man up. It’s my choice I suppose. Everything will get better, I’ll have more time. I’ll probably be more active again, back in the gym. I felt happy the last time as well that I stopped. It was kind of satisfying when you walked out of the shops and someone was smoking and you could smell it and you were like, urgh, it’s horrible. Like, you never said it out loud because you don’t want to be that person, but, it’s all good, there is no bad.